For a while my heart has been heavy with so many things that I want to put out and share here in this forum, that I don’t have any idea where to begin. I have just been letting God lead me. I started to do this for cathartic reasons. This was a way for me to share my thoughts and feelings, essentially without being interrupted until I completed my thought… and you have seen how long that can take sometimes for me. I am no writer. But last night God told me to “get it all out there”, so I will for the following reasons.
- For the Glory of God.
- For the weight it lifts off me.
I had no idea that people find “my story” inspiring, uplifting, and so many other adjectives that humble me, I can’t even believe.
When I received my Brain Injury almost two years ago now, I had no idea how dramatically my life would change. God had to literally “hit me in the head” to get my attention. Now though that he has it, I want others to know how easy it is to change.
OK, that is an overstatement, change is NOT easy! At least while we try to control the change, and change under our terms. “I’ll change what is easy now and work on the harder stuff later”. That is how man changes. When God changes you, it is a scary freedom. From what I am told it happens different for everyone, but for me, over time I started to notice that desires and priorities shifted off of me, and onto Him. For me it was like “Whew, I don’t need to worry about that, God has it… Holy Crap! I don’t have to worry about that because God has it”
Trust is such a big word to have so few letters. But I can absolutely tell you, the more trust you give Him, the more blessings you get back from Him. That is how God works when you let him. It is not always easy, it’s not all cake and ice cream, He will test you to make sure your pot committed. Just never give up trust, and know with confidence and belief in your heart, that your deuce/seven will beat the pocket aces sitting across the table, when you trust Him! (This is of course a metaphorical reference, don’t blame me for what happens at the tables after you read this. God is not a magic genie in a bottle for you to use at your convenience, He is a heart change, a lifestyle change and a commitment that you will feel like a wave of freedom cleansing you.)
My plan is to start a chronological attempt at my life. Where that leads, God know and has a plan for, all I have to do is trust and show up. So if your interested, lets see where this goes.